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p i s s e d

such a boring day. so pissed.
it's me. i don't like to have nothing to do.

the weather's been perfect this weekend.
clear blue skies. soft cool breeze. light sunshine.
it's so lovely to be in the park, enjoying the sights and sounds.
or down at the beach, playing beach volley or jus sun tanning.

damn. no one to do stuff together with.
friends are either unavailable, or in hall or sleeping.
wtf.
Joshua was home studying.
Jared's phone was down so he couldn't recieve my calls.

so spent my pathetic day at home doing pathetic readings.
Benson was out with Pauline. bringing her for thai food.
Mol was at golden mile enjoying thai food with Jeff and his cousin.
urgh... i have NO life. NO LIFE absolutely what.

fuck. i wanna migrate.
australia. many nature parks. beaches. shorelines. af fresco cafes.
farms. vineyards. medieval churches.
get a house. get a car. get a garden. go spend my sundays with my dog and my gardening.
take a walk in the woods. read a novel by the river. watch the eagles fly.
that's what i wanna do.

went to church alone. was late. all coz of Grandma.
neh.... i don't wanna talk about her. bloody pissed.
met Josh after church. went to Serangoon Gardens for a drink.
met Edelweiss there too. had fries. no, no cute guys to ogle at.
alot of cute furry faithful pooches thou. i love them! adorable, well behaved Golden Retrievers.
okay... wasn't much of a fun thing to do =/

fuck. i hate CNY. damn. 2 weeks to go.
my parents ain't coming home.
i don't have a big extended family either.
no, i'm not going over to my cousins's house or my Uncle's house.
damn tiring. CNY? no warmth. no sense of reunion. no fun. waste time.
jus gonna spend my CNY watching movies alone while u guys enjoy visiting! hahah!
time to catch up with my long-neglected movies.
oh yes! can club too! since it falls on a Wed and Thurs =)
but no one's free... =(

suddenly i jus thought of Yu Ming. it's been 4 years since he's left Singapore.

but yah... all said and done, i think i am a very fortunate girl.
as i am typing this blog, i am watching a tv program on genetically disabled kids.
thou they have brittle bone disease, and other physical disabilities,
they have a stronger fighting spirit than any of us.
they cherish every living moment, bringing out the best of their potential,
helping others in need too.
so, why am i grumbling so much just coz i have nowhere to go, or no one to go out with?

Michele, the guy who msg u on frenster abt tutoring u in maths?
he's Wei Jian. no, he is not the China guy.
he's a sweet, nice, decent, fun loving Chinese guy.
he's majoring in maths. i've known him since jc1.
ermm... if ask me to evaluate between Wei Jian, Benson and Mitchell...
5 stars for Wei Jian! he's a nice shy sweet guy. humble. no huge ego. no flirtatious head.
those thoughtful and yet humurous guy. and no, he doesn't spew Chinese.

posted by Veen @ 13:40